Laying in bed now but on edge, worried, need to sleep but mind won't stop. I took helper meds, but I have serious reason to be seriously worried. Business I've spent my life on is on the brink. I quit the smokes for almost a week, but bought a pack today and just want to smoke them all! I may be hypo but I need it, need super human money manifesting to get me out of this jam. I don't want to lose everything! Almost midnight and relax helper meds not yet working. If only I hadn't been ill, and my kids hadn't been ill, I would already have clean financials and bank loans worked out. I know I could've done better, I didn't do my best, or maybe I did idk... So much on the line and I want to make it happen, I just need a little more time to get the whole portfolio together... Ugghh why did I waste so much time, why couldn't have I just been smarter and more focused and on top of things? I have to wind down, calm down, sleep and wake up early, get kid to school, get to work and figure out financing solutions. I am not in a good position I can keep laying here ancy and wait it out, hope for fresh clear mind and solutions in the morning or get back dressed in warm clothes and go smoke the rest of the pack under the stars, maybe they'll help me manifest the cash... Oh gosh I need to make this work somehow, so much on the line. I've made it so far, young single mom on my own running an amazing business. I need magic mojo prayers money dances. There must be a way to fix this help! I must find an investor, a bank to believe in me, eeeks, help! I could try to stay up all night and work, but my brain malfunctions like that, I'm already mis-reading my name as Bananas! I am going bananas or just realizing I've long time been bananas!!!