Anxiety is the worst! Somehow I can handle most of the other crap, deep depression, self consciousness, no energy... but when I get anxious, especially when it's that vague kind, you're uptight for no particular reason, I freakin' hate that sh**. Well you have my prayer, for what it's worth. Lousy time to quit smoking, eh? Just quit myself, 2 months ago, and did it all wrong (for a depressive). Killed off a pretty decent period of level mood, almost very good, not quite but hey, I wasn't complaining. Abruptly cutting out nicotine did me in, which I later learned is a known "thang".

Anyway you sure have plenty to trip those antsy wires, there's a domino effect going on here too, yes? Coulda shoulda woulda, etc. All to familiar to me. Don't beat yourself up, get mad but first remember that you've probably been here before, in this mood, and you got through whatever it was that seemed so crappy at the time... we tend to forget those "successes" ya know? Bring one back to mind, take yourself by the hand as if you were comforting a child, because you are doing that very thing... calm yourself with a memory of having come out the other side of some past troublesome event... breathe deep, listen to your breath, be aware of the intake/outflow... have a cig if it calms you, and rest. You'll figure it out. People give a hoot. Relax. Calm. Peace...