...now...first up!

it's very important for those that have recieved my attention to know that I never fake my responses...

I never fake anything!

what hurts me is the extent I go to express myself...

it's such a risk!

upsetting people has nearly killed me...

...I have never been ready for the reactions of others!

I never expected anyone else to be as intense as me...

for those who want pictures?...got none...this is too real!

I sit here beyond thinking believing I have this special brain that excludes me from connecting with others and I can always follow up my insecurity with that!

I hide...conveniently behind pictures and tripped out flippy wordplay...!

I am just a boy...I am not smart...I am not intelligent...!!

a smart man an intelligent man would be able to experience the real confidence of a woman!...

this I cannot do....

my IQ is high but my behaviour is low...my emotions are compromised!

how long can I blame the things that have happenned to me?

laying awake all night thinking about it is so boring now....

I took my damage out on everyone in sight and I'm still paying the price

...I hate to call myself stupid...

I didn't even know I had anything wrong...

my emotions are intact...my brain aint so good..

I know exactly when I love and I know exactly when I hate...

and yet I'm so confused how can I understand whats in between?