I've had a problem with realizing what I thought before might be "content" was actually just "settling" for, um, mediocrity..? The absolute challenge for my variety of BP is not to believe in the highs at all. They are so seldom, far between anyway... but if/when that happens again, I'll be aware of the fantasy of it and just treat it like a dream state that will end without notice. (My "highs" have only been very mild hypomania... which for me was amazingly good... but for someone without mental illness it's probably just what they'd call feeling good, having a good time, pleasant but nothing that special. Being childlike in ability to get caught up with the moment, put everything else aside. And like a "typical" BP, oh my GOD I want that feeling back! "Well, you CAN'T have it so there"