hi.

i really really don't know what to do about this

when i was a young child, before all my problems started, i went to walt disney in america- and 1 of the rides i went on was called the tomorrowland transet authority.. this train ride around part of the theme park with really cool anouncements and stuff, and an awsome view of tomorrowland (1 of the park areas)

anyway, i've thought nothing of it for ages, in fact- i forgot it existed until recently

let me just say- that because of my current situation, fear of flying, in a wheelchair, short of money, anxiety about leaving the house and other mental issues... i won't be going back to walt disney anytime soon

but anyway: all i can think about for the past year, is the tomorrowland transet authority.. it's like constant- i watch videos of it on youtube, and impersinate the anouncements on it, and sometimes when i'm quiet, i think i can hear a crowd of people lining up to go on it- i'm not sure if it's just the tomorrowland transet authority- i've thought about other atractions, but i don't think as deep

i don't know what to do- i'm no where near in a good situation to go and ride it, and i've seen every video on it possible (even downloaded the potcast of it)

what can i do- surely thinking obsessively about a train ride you went on ages ago which you wouldn't have remembered much of at the time is pretty wierd?