Well I see a temporary arnp psychiatrist today, I will get my permanent one on the 19th. I couldn't sleep and I'm afraid they may say hospital or put me on seroquel or zyprexa. I can't gain any more weight. I gained 50lbs on seroquel.

I'm just scared with my lack of trust issues.....just scared. I cannot go back to foothills, it was awful I was highly agitated in there.

I would perhaps go to the other hospital but they seem to not ever have any beds open.