(((((((Everyone)))))))) If wanted.
I'm so sorry you are struggling so much. I understand what you are saying about emotions. Emotions are not shown here either.

Trust is pretty confusing here but T says it comes about when things are consistent. As you see that your T consistently takes the information you give and uses it in a good way and not a harmful way, hopefully you will be able to trust him more. From the things you have said about him, he seems to be trustworthy.

As for the emotions, perhaps test the waters with little things. See how he reacts, handles those things. From there, you can determine how much more to give him. It seems that you are trusting him some because information was given about the emotions. Maybe the emotions will come in time, as you learn that T is safe.

I'm not sure about healthy ways to express emotions. We are kind of still in the stage of, what is an emotion again and what does it look like?

T said different people can be trusted with different things. I hope that you will be able to find your T trustworthy in the matter of your emotions one day soon.

If this doesn't help at all, just diregard. But please know we care.

Wishing you peaceful thoughts as you heal. Take care.