I wish I could feel like I wasn't a failure. I should be mad at her but that faded and now I just feel immense sadness. I feel alone and scared. It was hard enough dealing with depression, why did I even look. I was actually feeling happy yesterday. Maybe it was the red flag going off. I was going to he last night and she stayed up. When I walked past she closed her Skype. I think that is why I looked this morning. I knew something in the back of my head said something was wrong. I don't know if I can stay with her. I might move out this weekend. I can't deal with this hurt. Not again. I deserve better than that. I deserve to be loved and cared for. I'm not perfect but I try my best to be a good person. I have always tried my best to keep her happy. I sent her mom a message on facebook asking her to call me. I need some motherly advice right now. I don't want to feel alone.