It does feel awful to be pushed away - I think that a lot of us have been through that in some capacity or another. It's certainly not an easy thing to deal with. Moving out sounds like it might be a good thing for you...even if it's only to help get you back on track for you. I think that a lot of us forget that in order to work things out in our lives, it's much easier to do so when we are in a better place to do that. I'm glad you recognize that you need to take care of yourself.

I wish you all the best and hope that you are able to do what is right for you first, and your relationship second. Put yourself first here at the moment...I think you need that most of all.