I was air flighted from out of country to a hospital in the USA, the Medical Transport Professionals left me abandoned in a busy hospital lobby..I sat there for over 5 hrs, sitting in a waiting room chair drugged and in restraints which were wraped around my waist and connected to my ankles so I could not walk but only hobble, I was under a blanket because when I arrived the lobby was empty and they needed the gurney back so they sat me in one of the many chairs in the main lobby area..but I sat watching other patients arrive and leave, families mostly, which was hard since I had been taken away from my own family, I had a 5 year old little girl left overseas along with my husband, both of which I had not seen while hospitalized due to my husband felt my personal problems were just that, and refused to be involved in any kind of treatment plan my physicians had developed..so I had all this and so much more running thru my head as I watched the children playing oblivous to my existance, waiting for their outpatient clinic and Dr appts...then someone called my name over a loud speaker..to report to the admitting desk..they kept repeating it over, and over..I finally could not stand it..I thru off my blanket..and the kids which had been playing and watching TV..suddenly stopped..ran to their parents..the people.. everyone was staring at me..I was weeping..as I hobbled thru the crowded lobby..my arms tethered to my sides, my ankles tethered together, of course they sat me about as far away from the admitting desk one could get..but when the admit desk saw me comming they were horrified...someone immediatley got me a wheel chair..the psych techs came down from the ward..there had been a goof up..a shift change..by that time I was mute..they put me in a bed and a psychiatrist came in...he was sp apologetic..but by that time I was traumatized beyond comprehension..I did not want to look at anyone, talk to anyone..I just wanted everyone to leave me alone...I have never gotten over the humiliation..they would have done none the worse by sitting me there naked.....
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Evangelista
We dance round in a ring and suppose..
But the secret sits in the middle and knows.. Robert Frost
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