Feeling really low. I just want to cry at the moment but I am at work so I can't. Three more hours until I get off. Wish I had a good friend at the moment. I hope I can sleep when I get home. I'm afraid if I stay awake I might hurt myself. Not suicide but I want to self harm. I just hate myself so much at the moment. I know I shouldn't and all of this isn't my fault but it feels like it is. I hope my mother in law calls soon. She is a voice of reason. I just need company and I don't have anyone to turn too.