Thursday at 10. I'm afraid she's going to terminate. I've been very depressed and last session she found out I stopped taking my anti depressant last summer as a way to self sabotage, I guess. Now I'm really scared she will give up on me. These threads here at PC lately have scared me even more.

I was trying to tell her how bad I am feeling and she just wasn't getting it. I told her I'm tired and I don't want to do this anymore. She thought I meant I want to quit therapy, but I meant quit life. I think she finally understood.

God, I'm scared. I'm so close to giving up on myself, I don't want her to give up on me.