I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I know it doesn't help, but it's not your fault, at all. It doesn't matter if you hid your depression. I don't feel she can be trusted and is taking advantage of you in more ways than one. I know that doesn't make it any easier, but you do have some support here, and you're welcome to PM in whenever. I'm on the computer all day long...I've just been kinda lurking today because I've had my own issues, but I'm always willing to talk to and help a friend. I am in your corner, for whatever thats worth.