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Originally Posted by ajmich
Nailed it, Odee! Lacking any motivation lately... the response is emptiness for sure. I ask for the willingness to heal, to let the meds work, to feel better... yet this episode has dragged on for 2 months now. Get a tiny bit of satisfaction realizing how much I have been forced to learn patience. It isn't about "wallowing" or self-pity... there is just a disconnect from anything that feels right and good.
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These past couple of weeks I have been struggling, and right now I am hurting because I'm lacking the enjoyment of anything while faced with things I should be enjoying and with people to enjoy those things with. New videogame my BF wants to watch me play....nope. Playing MarioKart and Wii Tennis , which in the past has been a blast, and with a bunch of friends....nope, wasn't fun. Two people are in the other room right now jamming on guitar....I wish I could feel the enjoyment of a hobby like that at this moment. It's painful to hang out with people, because talking and being with them isn't fun. My psychiatrist complains about my self isolation...but there is not always the drive.
I know it's depression creeping on in. This isn't a normal experience.
Like I said, it seems like negativity has been hitting me harder and more constantly these past couple of weeks.