Yes. Regrets, failures, self loathing. I can't do this or I'm stuck like this. I can't believe what a terrible person I've been. I'm so afraid of such and such happening. Why can't I feel better and live a life.

Over and over. I know that they are supposed to stop but what am I supposed to do? It's not like being free of these thoughts make me feel any better. I know the anxiety fuels them/is fueled by them, but the depression? Even when the thoughts are not there the depression remains.

These thoughts have been flooding me lately and now my chest is hurting as I'm typing about them.