I'm a weird person when it comes to weather and mood. I hate the warm sunshine in the summer. I get depressed starting in spring. The reason being I am a nut for winter sports (specifically skiing). Well its getting to be that time of year again when I realize that the season is over, I have accumulated a mountain of next-to-permanent injuries, and I have no money left. I had my last ski for the season this weekend where I went down hard on a jump and fractured a vertebrae. It was all in all a good season, but I'm just dreading the next 2 weeks when I know the depression is gonna hit me hard. I hate summer. It reminds me of all the times when other kids in school took summer vacations in disney land while I had to sit in the backyard at my grandparents' house doing yard work. I dont like breaks from school because they remind me of the fact that I have no friends. I'd rather have a winter break so I could ski to take my mind off of this. Sadly, this summer I will be both alone and bored. No plans whatsoever and I cant get a job. This makes me even more depressed since I wont be able to save up for next year's season. I don't think I can live knowing that i'd miss a season of doing the only thing that keeps me going. For years now I've looked for friends to ski with that maybe I could talk to as well in the summertime. So far everyone I ask either cannot keep up with my level of skiing (I compete on the national level occasionally) Or doesn't like me for one reason or another. So here I am, looking towards a terrible and depressing summer with nothing to do and no one to talk to. I've heard bad things about what happens when someone gets too depressed and alone for too long and I dont want to be there. What can I do knowing that I have no money, no friends and no interests of any kind? My parents tell me to take up swimming or running, but it just doesnt do it for me. Nothing compares to the feeling of flying through the air, spinning and flipping to my heart's content. I have no interest in skating, otherwise I'd have done that as a temporary replacement. Last summer I worked and sat in my room and watched my ski videos allllll summer. I know there are places I could go skiing during the summer, but its soooooooo expensive. I hate school and am thinking about dropping out because I'm so sick of it. I have no focus at all. For the last 3 months, I've sat in every class daydreaming. Its making me fail the classes. What do I do? I have no other interests. Skiing is my life and I want nothing else. I'd give up everything and live homeless just for the chance to ski every day if thats what it took. Does anyone else have this kind of obsession? How do I stop this storm of negative feelings that is coming so soon?