Hi Patoman,

What you're describing as your anticipation of the onset of depression is one of my major depressive symptoms - once I start to slip a wee little bit, my mind goes into overdrive about going to the darkest place ever. It can be really tough.

1- Have you spoken with a therapist or physician about your symptoms? If not, I think it could help, my new meds are pretty great for me. I can focus on work and get suff done and stop obsessing about things I have no control over (like seasons).

2- Have you ever considered getting some summer skis. I just did a search online and found images of people skiing all over cities with skis with blades on them. I know it's not flying through the air, but it'll keep you in shape. Also, I saw images of people using those skis to compete in slalom events.

3- When you don't have friends, the best thing to do is try to make some. And the easiest way to make friends is to take up an activity or something so that you can meet people who have similar interests.

RJ