Hi everyone. So I'm new here and I honestly don't know what I suffer from. I just know I don't like it. I'm depressed and refuse to get help (much to the annoyance of some friends). It has gotten to the point where even going to my music doesn't help me which is kind of weird for me. But anyways, I don't get help because I don't have a job and thus have to live with my parents still. I'm 19 and hopefully will be gone from this house soon. I basically just feel like everyone is out to get me sometimes but a lot of the time, I'm just sad. It's been like that for years now but I figure as long as I'm functioning and stuff, I don't need to be in a hurry to get help. Is that wrong? Is there a way for it to just build up and get so bad that when I do get help, there won't be much it can do?
Anyways, I really don't know what to say because I feel like I don't even know what I'm thinking. But I knew I needed to get myself out there, just to try to ask for advice.