The big difference is I told her of my feelings. On top of that I also said I wasn't ready to pursue another relationship and that I would be jealous if she did. And I also spoke of my fear of abandonment, and that she would replace me with someone else. It wasn't something I would openly diverge except for the fact I was trying to be truly honest with her. I only had feelings as well. I didn't go outside of the marriage.

A lot of this started over the topic of children and my depression. For a long time, maybe too long I tried to manage my depression on my own. I would try and do the best I could without professional help or talking about it. My depression was the main reason I didn't want children. I didn't tell her only that I was reluctant. I think that turned into resentment. Maybe that is what this all started over. I think too much damage has been done on both sides to make this a viable relationship again. I doubt I could ever trust her. It's obvious her feelings for me gone. My best thing is to get into therapy and out of this relationship. I need to deal with my depression and self esteem.