I feel sad all the time, and i have anxiety issues
a week ago i had a panic attack where i could barely breathe because my mother was yelling at me (nobody would even help me besides my brother who gave me a hug) i was hysterically crying and trying to breathe. I feel no motivation to do anything, i quit the play i was starring in and quit this club i joined and im a senior in high school with 3 F's... Everyone is mean to me for no reason. even my vice principal called me spoiled.

i barely eat because we dont have enough income to get a decent amount of food, i live in a house with a very dysfunctional family that ive even had the cops come over a few times to calm everything down.. i sit in my pig sty of a room all day covered in clothes alone and sit on the computer. i always have aches and pains and my eye twitches like crazy all the time. I always feel sick or like throwing up and no one bothers to help me even when i ask for it....
I started having suicidal thoughts when i was 8 years old. during my sophmore year it started getting really bad. i think about it a lot. i dont think id do it.. but i really contemplate it sometimes and it makes me cry..
i cant even sleep... and even if i do sleep, i could sleep for 10 hours and still feel exhausted.. i feel worthless.. i dont have enough money for councling.. i dont know what to do..