Thanks mama. Your a good friend. This place makes me feel less alone. My work has an EAP program that gives finanical and personal advice. I'll give them a call. I hurt a lot right now. I completely opened up to her, told her everything I felt and she tells me in not so many words she doesn't love me anymore. That hurts deep. I've been laying in bed feeling numb. I've been laying here for a couple of hours and I can't sleep.

I'm glad I have this place and my therapist tomorrow. I hope the new meds my doctor gave me help to. At the moment I feel numb and empty. I guess that is better than depressed and hopeless for the time being so I'll fake it. I told one of my online friends about all this and he said I can call him anytime. I don't feel alone. I just want to sleep. I have to get up in 6 hours.