...this illness has so many identities!...all fighting for control..

who?...is left to survive this onslaught?

how can I find my way out of this mess everything upsets me I can barely move!
and yet I have to tell myself evrything is ok....even when it cripples me!


I don't want attention!...I make a fool of myself around people...always!...such a fool!...I am such a fool..

and when is it ok to really connect with someone else?...to ask for help?

especially when everything I do blows my mind...

and I just don't know who I am?

better go frightening all over again !!

just to take on this crazy world!!

I don't think hating me works too good...and hating everything else?
I forget what I really look like!

and even if I'm a creep?...thats ok!

dubblemonkey...