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Originally Posted by Speed3
In the beginning of December I started taper down the Ativan. I was doing great. I also got off seroquel. My husband and I started going back to the gym. I was feeling better.
Than on 1/3/13 our only child dies in our arms. Seroquel and Ativan are saving graces right now. I would be psychotic without them. I am so depressed leaving the house, dressing are impossible useless tasks. So much for plans!!!
My mom committed suicide when I was 22. I lived my adult life without a mom.
Now at 56 I lose my only child. How ever much life I have left will be without my beloved Jason. No grandchildren, my buddy Jason is gone. I am surprised I am breathing and writing this. I am sobbing beyond belief, it feels like there is a dagger in my heart. How do I go on ?????????
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I am just so sorry for your loss, and given your circumstances, Speed, can see where you are coming from! I can also see why you need some "numbing" right now, from the Ativan and Seroquel. Been there and done that! I hope you'll be careful with them, though. They are good for your purposes, but I know they can cause problems, as well. The best, Speed!