I love that you said to develop a crush, it made me laugh. I feel like this is describing me exactly. I'm smart when I try but I've been trying less and less every year and I just got a mark in the 50s on my last midterm and that was pure luck. I'm also skipping classes now and skipped my last counselling session. I think I'm slowly withdrawing from my world and it is getting harder to leave my house. But I keep telling myself I'll get better. Any suggestions?