Sorry you have to go through all this. I think a lot of us are going through hard times right now. Heck, I think that's why we're all here. I've been worried about posting something triggering lately. I thought about PM's Doc and asking if what I was saying was okay and not going to give anybody "ideas". I hope that nobody takes any of my posts the wrong way or uses what I write the wrong way. Something I still worry about. My hugs go out to you and I hope to still see plenty of you around--if not in original posts, then perhaps replies. Maybe even in chat.