I'm ok. I should feel down, but I feel numb at the moment. It's hard to focus and think today. I think the meds are helping me already. Partly I am happy I get to find a new releationship after I end and heal from this one. I think about the person I want to spend the rest of my life with and she wasn't it. I think I settled because she like me so much in the beginning and I came from nothing and had pretty bad self esteem. I deserve to be with someone who treats me better than she has. I should have left a couple years ago when she cheated the first time.