Odee, Confusedinomicon: both of you hit on major items for me. Have a LONG term habit of avoiding other people's "fun" because the disease keeps me from any enjoyment... and if exposed to their fun, it's worse because I feel like a turd for not enjoying things like the others can. Worse yet is feeling like a "bug" or something if you try to explain and you get those weird looks and people shuffle their feet or change the subject.

Hard as it is sometimes to even leave the house, it's so true that being outside, preferably in solitude, somewhere with nature (not cement) can be a mood lightener... you have to LET it sink into you a bit, yes? Drink it up. Bundle up if it's cold. And my T has been suggesting Vit D for weeks now... I drink milk, take a multivitamin, but she says you have to get sunshine (or equivalent from special lamps) or get it from foods... ditto B-12. Going to see about blood work for possible deficiencies. thanks evvabody!