ouch!!!! that hurts.... it physically hurts.... my greatest achievement in life is i haven't "yet" cut myself..... i think about it almost every single day... its like there is this voice whispering in your head telling you how bad you are and must punish yourself..... i don't know whats so great about pretending bipolar.... and those who have bipolar 1 they might need to be admitted because of episodes.... think about stigma of that... i spend half of my life in depressed state because of my bipolar 2 but at least i can hide it from everyone else... nobody knows i have bipolar except me and my pdoc....

you are just over thinking all of this... when you have bipolar you just cant trust your brain completely.... sometimes its mania speaking and sometimes its depression......