Dear T,

So I guess we have to go over the mess we didn't on Monday since I cancelled last week's session and saw another T on Tuesday. I think the other T is a better fit for me, but I felt incomplete from not seeing YOU which makes me incredibly angry and confused, esp. since in real life I don't think about you until T day, and I don't feel a super strong connection to you.

So it has to go back to ex-T and how you have experienced my whole termination process with me. How do I let you go when you were there for me and ARE still there for me (for I am not DONE) but I think in order to be done, I need a different T. **** my ex-T for terminating with me like he did, no matter how deep his guilt, even if we could drown in it. I still don't know why he let a consultant rule over my termination. I either never asked the right questions or he had no intention of giving me the right answers. You have done so much...I don't think you could get them from him either, but I might ask you to try.

How can you not be asking for extra copays and some benzos to deal with this??? I make it impossible to move because ex-T superglued me to the ground...and he knew it. It's like being locked in a cage for almost 2.5 years. Or even better, since ex-T liked puzzles...one of those big puzzles on the lawn that you find your way out of. I got dropped into one with no exit...