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Originally Posted by Anne2.0
No, I can't agree with that. Any T that fires you for sending an email about how you feel (even though I am generally opposed to email contact) would be wrong to do it. Well, unless you were describing how you were going to eat her children with mustard or something like that.
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No mustard is involved LOL!
What I did email to her I'm embarrassed by. I feel like I owe her an apology. This is what I wrote
(what I posted earlier in the thread only this has 'yous'
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My apologies in advance for all the you wording and sending this in an email. The fact Im sending an email is kind of a copout vs. saying this in person. Something I need to get off my mind
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I'm this pathetic needy loser who needs to go to therapy every week.
I view you as such: smart, strong, independent, has nice hair, has the perfect family/kids and lifestyle. In some ways I'm putting you on a pedestal.
I also look at you and see your imperfections or what I view as imperfections which are really incompatibilities to the type of person I am.
You are going on vacation in a couple weeks and I'm not feeling great about that. I feel needy and like a loser for the fact that I'm going to miss seeing you the week your on vacation and I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it. I feel somewhat anxious and needy.
Finally there's a part of me that doesn't like you because I feel you have no idea what I'm going through. You grew up with a privileged lifestyle, went away to camp in the summers and had family that loved and supported you up through school and college.
I didn't have any of that.
Sorry if what I wrote is confusing. I have a lot stirring around my mind right now. I'm feeling really pathetic right now. Pathetic because I'm going to miss you. Someone who has nothing invested in me other than time because I'm paying her. And it will never be any different.
That is hard for me to accept.