Hi. I'm new here and I found this forum after looking some things up son depression. I'm 26, female, and have been depressed for a very long time. I feel like I can't tell anyone about it because I hide my feelings too well. Im afraid that people will think I'm just trying to get attention like I was told when I was a young. I also have migraines so its easy to use that excuse when its too hard to put up that front that everything is okay. Its been several years and I have yet to see a doctor or anything about my depression. I had gone to a psychiatrist when I was 12 but only went a few times. I honestly don't remember anything about that experience except that I felt uncomfortable and throwing a tantrum and crying so much about not wanting to back that my parents never made me go. It was after that when I learned to hide my feelings. I've been feeling so low the past few days to the point where I feel like I can't go on. I know I need to get professional help but I don't know how to take that first step. Im so nervous that I'm going to pick the wrong doctor and that they aren't going to help. Deep down I feel like my fears are irrational but they feel so real to me and I'm not sure exactly WHY. I just recently moved and so I don't have many people to talk to. I don't know how to ask for help without sounding ridiculous. I just don't know what to do.