Hi All,

So I have been struggling with OCD for years which became mostly the obsessional form in that I performed all sorts of rituals and checks in my mind so that things felt "right." I had a really bad situation happen about three months ago in which I feel like I have lost my sense of self or who I thought I was. I have been seeing a psychologist and we still have a lot of discovering to do, but in this time I have questioned whether or not I have been experiencing some form of dissociation as well. I have this constant sense of "watching" my thoughts as well as my as my actions and behaviors. I also feel like I am battling this presence 24/7 sometimes I can't help but engage with it, other times I try to just keep it there and accept it for what it is but it never seems to go away. Now, I don't feel like I am watching myself from the outside, but rather from the inside almost like I have two brains. I also know that this is all me and not some outside voice, but this presence itself keeps telling me negative things and I believe it because I know this is all coming from me. I also seem to have these thoughts that bring memories of myself to confirm the negative feelings and ideas about myself. I still feel like me, but this negative persona feels like it has taken away my ability to experience life as I use to and to think as I did. Sometimes I don't know if I am just making this all up. In fact, I think my obsession with this is what has imprinted it into my psyche. Any insights or thoughts would be greatly appreciated.