I cut up my arm last night and went to the hospital being suicidal they said they couldn't admit me to the psych ward because every time I was there I got worse so thats why I can never get admitted in. Well I can sorta understand I did get worse but not by choice I don't choose to feel the way I do it just happens.

So I slept on this couch last night until they woke me up at 7:30 telling me i have been discharged and free to go. so after I got home I crawled into bed and slept until 10:38am.

I don't choose my emotions but I am feeling crappy, resentful, worried, anxious, depressed, sad, and alone.