Thanks for your message. It is true that I don't know all the facts about my dismissal, but I think I have a straightforward case about the fact that they didn't consider the medication involved and blamed me instead. Furthermore, even though I have an outstanding record, that includes appreciation of clinical skills, they generalized from this one email to my overall abilities which is wrong. And the last thing is that they didn't follow there own processes about maybe putting me on a warning or a probation so they could later check in on how I was doing. According to the rules, that is how a student is supposedly be handled if any question is raised.

Even if I get a lawyer to get involved, people at the University may not be willing to write for me even though they like me and thought I had a lot of talent and potential. They may feel it is too messy, or even worse, may be instructed not to have any further contact with me. So in terms of applying to another school, I don't know that that would be possible without letters or my record sealed.

My therapist tried to suggest some alternatives, but I feel pretty demoralized. He said that if I didn't feel demoralized by this I would really be crazy. He said I had the big heart of a therapist and also the clinical skills. He did raise though that I may not be able to handle the emotional demands, at least there was still a question about that, though he added that he was impressed by how well I was handling this whole mess since when it started. That it showed strength and resilience and that he was not seriously worried about me.

When I feel that I have no future in this career, I'm going to end up becoming very emotional about it. I'm starting to feel that as a possibility. I used to be a professor at Berkeley so I can't imagine just taking any old job and having a life like that. I need more than that and am more talented than that.

This injustice is so hard to deal with, I can't even get angry because it seems absurd that one single email written while asleep would be the cause of all this drama which I didn't create and tried to handle professionally.