My whole life has been filled with people who did horrible things to me and got away with them. Most people have not proven that they could be even decent, let alone trustworthy. How can I continue in a world that lacks decency and is filled with mean people? Why should I even try? It just happens over and over again. I am vulnerable somehow and people prey on that vulnerability so I can never win, no matter hard I try.

Every time this happens I try again with renewed hopes, and they get dashed to pieces. I'm too old to continue to have to put up with this anymore. I'm so tired of fighting and struggling when I am good and decent and treat everyone well. It doesn't make any sense any more.