Dear T,

If I tell you all of the dark thoughts going around in my head right now, what will you really think? I'm too scared to tell you, but I think I should. I'm safe, but the thoughts are really overwhelming at times.

And I know I keep saying this, but I would give anything for you to specialize in Eating Disorders. With my assessment so far away, it's making my behaviors worse. I'm very honest with you, but I just can't keep doing this, because I just don't care anymore. The thought of starting over with a new T at the ED clinic scares the heck out of me and I just can't do it.

Thank you for not giving up on me.