Well Black Tears, it sounds horrible what happened to you and your husband is poster boy for bad word, bad word people.

Please come back here at PC and the members will offer you support or feedback. Post whatever you need to express.

I can't say enough or find the words to what you went through, but continue to post whenever you need to. When you are ready, you can ask for support or feedback specific to what you are needing.

A therapist would be someone who could help you start healing. That's something to think about when you think it's time to find one.