I am okay, I just have a harder time right now controlling my thoughts. It's taking quite a bit to not want to reach for something to hurt myself with.

Also my sister has no idea what's going on. Since she has been moody and I just don't want to talk to her. Since she is not the support that I really need right now. I just wish.... I had someone to really talk to, about anything and everything. Like it didn't matter what I said, just as long as it got out in a safe way...

I sooooo want to hurt myself, at least the pain would interrupt all of the thought processes that are going on right now.