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Originally Posted by monarch_butterfly
Since my T confirmed that my little Anna is most likely an alter. (My T has experience in trauma counseling and is a psychologist) i have been thinking back over the past years. In 2005 i was in patient at a couple of psych units. One more acute then (the other. At the acute one i got diagnosed with depression with psychosis.
I now question this diagnosis. I was obviously depressed as i was suicidal and was activly trying to do stuff.. when the staff asked me if i could hear voices i saidd yes. Because i could. A mans and a womans. But they were far away and i couldn't tell what they were saying. I just know it wasn't directions like kill ypurself etc. I told staff at the time it was like radio without the static..
But i think I'm wrong. I think the far awayness and inability to hear exactly what they were saying compares almost exactly to when Anna is far away from me and talking from a distance. So i am thinking those two are also alters. I haven't heard them since 2005. But I'd think their still there.
Has anyone else been diagnosed with psychosis and later discovered it was really alters and thus DID? And does my theory re Anna and the 2 possible year 2005 alters make sense? Any other thoughts?
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we cant tell you whether what you were hearing and what was happening in 2005 was psychosis or DID, or even whether it makes sense because one Im not in your location where this happened and two theres a vast difference between psychosis and DID...that difference is the other accompanying symptoms that you had back then, some that you may not even know were symptoms...
for one thing people with DID are the way they are from before the age of 5 when the person first became DID.. that means that every single thing that makes a person DID has been happening since before the age of 5. with DID your sense of reality remains intact. that means you dont lose your sense of whats real and what isnt. you dont just suddenly show psychotic behavior and thoughts.
where as psychosis can happen at any time.. a person can at any time become suicidal, hear voices, have weird thoughts, and lose their sense of reality
my suggestion contact your treatment providers (your doctors and therapists) they can show you in your files why they felt in 2005 you were psychotic and the underlying symptoms that led them to believe that diagnosis.
if you really feel you have DID my suggestion is not to keep trying to figure this out on your own. here in america there are special tests that can diagnose whether a person has a dissociative disorder like DID or not..
its easy to get tested here in america.. all you need to do is tell your therapist you want to be tested. she fills out a paper /or does a referral to your medical doctor and a psychiatrist. then you go through a bunch of tests and then your therapist and psychiatrist will talk with you about your test scores.
trying to second guess whats already been done way back in 2005 is only going to cause you more stress and problems..not only that...its been 8 yrs since 2005, people change, and you are not the same person you were in 2005. so comparing your self to how you were in 2005 in my opinion will only do your self a huge dis-service. its best to stay in the present and deal with today not worry about what if's and coulda, shoulda's form the past. talk with your therapist, she can help you discover whats going on with you now in the present.