JP,

Please hang in there. Read these words: the depressed feelings won't last. It will get better. It can get better.
Please, please call your doctor and book an appointment to speak with someone about your feelings. Don't shut yourself away from everything. Reach out; help is available to you.

Are you currently medicated?

Hang in there. There are lots of supportive friends for you to make here.

Much love and blessings,
boogie