Thanks yoslos, I guess I'll be sure to get as much help as I need. And yeah, four years sounds like such a long time, I hope you're getting the help you need too . Best wishes.
I have a friend who is really supportive, but I guess I've been keeping a lot of this to myself. So I guess I don't really talk to them about it, I just don't want to upset them by bringing this all out. I don't know really, I guess I just need to stop finding excuses and deal with it.
It's nice to hear your husband helped so much, black dog boogie, even if he didn't have to say very much. It's such a sweet thing to hear and I hope everything gets better real soon.