therapy was bad this week. i actually asked her if i was safe. i should know if i'm safe or not and shouldn't need reassurance from anyone else. i was doing so well there for a few days and then another hour in her office and i don't want to sleep again. i know it isn't her fault nor is it mine. i just can't take it anymore. the details of the past were safe inside of me. i don't feel safe right now, not in my room, not alone, not anywhere. i don't know what to do, i always know what to do. why can't i fix this. i don't remember ever feeling this out of control. i'm sorry just having a hard night.