Sometimes it's easier to figure out where to start if you break it up into smaller bits. You have a lot of really big, broad issues that are concerning to you. If you can narrow your focus onto the one thing that bothers you the most right now, and then break THAT down into its component parts and pick one of those, maybe it will help. (Just as an example, I *am* fat, but I'm working on it. But if I thought of how much I have to go, I would immediately quit and give up. If I think to myself, "ok, in 5 pounds I'll reevaluate things and decide what to do next," and still give myself the choice, 5 pounds is a lot easier to deal with than the totality of the problem.)

Dunno if that helps any ... I'm tired and it's late.

CB