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Originally Posted by monarch_butterfly
Welcome! I dissociate and have at least one alter in. I am still figuring myself out!  The best peice of advice I can give you is to keep talking with your therapist. Journaling has helped me. Everyone has individual experiences when it comes to to dissociation. Some is actually normal. Only a yherapist can tell you if what you are experiencing is abnormal. It depends on the type and length of it. And other stuff too.
I can tell you what mine is like. When i dissociate i go indto this tunnel. But i haven't figured out where i end up. It is a quiet place and very white. I usually dissociate anywhere from seconds to minutes. There are several things tha trigger me and sometimes i don't know why i dissociate. Sometimes i don't know that i have until i found out i already had conversation A with person Q yedterday but I do not remember it no matter how hard i try.
So thats a bit about me. Hope it helped.
when you watch your thoughts do uou see them in words? And the persona is you.. so it sounds like your voice? And when you watch yourself doing things are you on the inside of your body? Just wanting to understand more! And welcome! Btw! |
Thanks for your response and sharing your experience.
The previous poster stated that it may be related to herbal supplements that I am taking, but I highly doubt that. This all came on weeks prior to me taking anything and I felt and still do to some degree that this is an offshoot of my OCD I'm just not sure as anxiety disorders can bring on dissociation. In fact, the supplements have calmed me down significantly in times of panic. When I read about dissociation most of what I understand from people's experiences is that it usually seems to be a lot more dramatic and somewhat different from what I experience. For me, I am aware that all of this is me and it doesn't seem like a separate entity within me, more like I am fighting myself. It can get confusing sometimes and feel like it is separate, but I know that it is me. I am always inside my body, it never feels like I'm watching myself from the outside, but rather I am making mental notes of myself from the inside so as if thoughts don't freely flow, but more like I am in control of my mind 24/7. My psychologist said this may create a minor feeling of depersonalization which leads me to believe that if I do experience depersonalization is an effect of my thinking all the time rather than the cause of it. I'm confused.
That's why I'm wondering if anyone with a dissociation condition has experienced this too