We cant tell you whether you have a dissociative disorder or not but we can tell you what jumps out in your post....

here in New York, which is in the USA being able to "watch" thoughts is not a dissociative symptom.. here its considered a psychotic symptom, I have had it happen and for me it came about for two reasons....using over the counter vitamins and supplements that I was not prescribed and in doses that my doctor did not prescribe.... I was also having memory problems like not knowing who I was where I was and many other things......

a body is made up of many vitamins, minerals, nutrients and chemicals that work together. you throw off that carefully balanced list of chemicals, nutrients, vitamins and minerals and all kinds of things can happen including things like psychotic episodes of things like auditory and visual hallucinations.

I went back in your posts and see that you are using 5HTP. here in New York doctors are warning against using this over the counter supplement because of things like heightened anxiety/ hallucinations/ psychotic thoughts/abnormal behavior changes.....

my suggestion let your psychiatrist know you are using this and discuss whether it is causing your problems you posted here and whether you need the type of chemicals in this supplemental drug and work with your psychiatrist to find the right dosage.

the other reason this symptom happened to me was because I was in a room where someone was smoking a joint. my body couldnt handle even the second hand smoke and caused me to have psychotic symptoms.