Thank you Bane. I am getting decent amount of sleep and am on a gluten free diet which has helped a lot. I have spent the last week in superwoman mode , that being said I knew what was coming, felt the darkness creeping back into me yesterday. What really upset me was that I was doing everything right, mindful thinking, yoga, meditation and exercise, taking control of me. It scares me when darkness starts setting back in, I have no one to depend on so i end up going through this by myself.I never know how long its going to last or how bad it will be. In the past I have ended up with very dark thoughts and in the hospital. I am feeling better this morning, hoping that's a good sign. Just wanted to say to I have a poem I wrote it called " Lost in my own mind " . I saw you have the words written on your post. Thank you for the support.