I don't cut. I hit. I know maybe that's weird. I won't go into details but I do hurt myself pretty bad sometimes. Mine comes out as an explosion during episodes, though, so it's really hard to stop. I don't plan it out, it's just suddenly happening.

I really feel for her. And yes, for me I think it's because the inside pain is so big and terrible that it's like trying to even out the outside with the inside. It's like the dumb idea that if you stub your toe, slam your finger in the door so your toe will stop hurting.