I don't know what to do anymore. I've lost everyone important to me now. The pain is beyond anything I can handle anymore. It just hurts so much. I dont want to be here anymore. I'm stuck where I can't go for my dreams, I have no one to support me, no friends, no money, broken back... Its all too much. All I needed was a friend that I could trust with everything. Someone who wouldnt care about the horrible things I did in the past. Now its all lost. I cant even process that hes gone! What do I do? I hate hurting like this! I'd rather a million physical injuries than this one emotional one. I'm alone. Forever alone