I personaly think that life is highly overrated but someone said to me that overcoming the fear of death is the easy part. Overcoming the fear of life is what's hard.

Clinical depression is unstable. It leaves you in yo-yo mode and emotional roller coaster. By any chance, are you suffering from bipolar - where you feel ok some days or happy, even and really sad on other days?

Suffering clinical depression is the worst thing - it is severe enough to make one feels paranoid - that you are losing your mind or going mad. It makes your chest feels constricted and you question everything that you do and think.

But... be strong and fight it. It's the only way you'll ever win.