Anyone that knows me a bit here on this site probably has noticed I've been absent.

I don't know how to explain it any more than it's just gotten to be too much trying to maintain my connections with people, keep up with them, and everything. no one individually has done anything to cause this, just so all my closest friends know. I've just been completely overwhelmed. I don't know how to put it any other way.

I have so many issues going on in my life right now and at the moment I feel like I've shared way too much here and all of you know too much and it makes me want to just stop it all. Go back to my private hell where I feel safer and less vulnerable. No it doesn't solve the problem but at least I can not feel like such a loser in sight of so many other people. I can pretend to the world that everything is ok and just take care of my own things without being dependent on others words or support.

Am I saying bye to you all? I don't think so. Probably not anyway. As every mood, phase and time in my life passes, this too will eventually.

I get your pm's and profile messages and I'll try to at least respond to those from time to time.

Thanks to you all that have checked up on me and sent me messages one way or another. I do see them and appreciate every single one of them.

I will let you know how I am soon.

*hugs all*
~S4